For R.A.D.:

happiness: state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy

I don’t think I’ve ever really looked at the definition of that word. Strangely though, I use it quite often (even have it in one of my previous blog posts). The scary part is that I don’t know whether I truly meet the qualifiers to call myself ‘happy’.

I am not unhappy. Anybody that has ever spent 5 minutes with me should know that. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m not really what I thought I was. This is a case where an opposite really doesn’t do its opposite justice; there are far too many variables to account for on both sides of that equation.

I suppose the big insight I’ve had most recently is that I have been confusing happy or happiness with tolerable complacency. I’m only now starting to see what a dangerously precarious and slippery slope that can be.  Am I to just clasp my hands together, sit, and wait for my disability to progress on, uninhibited, while I’m still able to do something about it? Am I waiting until it’s too late? Have I already?

I believe firmly that it’s never too late, that you just need to adjust your expectations. Maybe your penultimate desire(s) cannot be achieved – but find a 2nd place…

Happiness vs tolerable complacency. Meh… “Shiny Ball of Tolerable Complacency” just doesn’t roll off the tongue as nicely.



3 thoughts on “For R.A.D.:

  1. Stephanie says:

    WIthout the sour, we would not appreciate the sweet.

    Perhaps looking at complacency as neither extreme high, nor extreme low will make it more tolerable?

  2. Nikki says:

    You are a big shiny ball of compassionate intellectualism & philosophical thinking, and that’s pretty great in my books.

    Granted my books are admittedly depressive, so take that with a grain of organic sea salt.

  3. rachel says:

    Thanks brother 🙂

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